Find me after by A Connors
Where do you go when you’re not quite gone?
After suffering an epileptic seizure, Kyle finds himself in a world that looks like ours but where nothing feels the same. This is the Stillness: an eerie, liminal alternative reality populated by those who are caught between life and death. Here, he meets his real-world crush, Farah, who is also unconscious back home. But as they get to know each other in the Stillness, they must face the possibility of forgetting each other in the real world. The way back to life is fraught with danger, and time, for both of them, is running out….




34 Comments
Anonymous
24th October 2025 at 11:43 amVery good book lovely romance interesting characters and amazing plot. Should read
Nathan Y8
14th October 2025 at 3:38 pmThis book was a really interesting book. I liked the book because the way the author put things into wonder because there is different reality and you question what is going to happen next and if they would survive the stillness. Another reason I like it is how they don’t stop because then they would be trapped so it is that resilience for not giving up and to keep on moving. The characters I admire for their personal individual skills is: Kyle; as soon as he got into the stillness he was panicking that he would never get out of there and Farah kind of slapped some sense into him and then Kyle started to realise that he knows he is close to death so he would rather go and try and reach the end and die with knowing that he tried then rather than sitting in a hospital dying. The thing that really got my attention is that Jonah had the same condition as Kyle (epilepsy) and he wants to rule the stillness. There are some romantic elements in the book like how Farah and Kyle start warming up to each other so that is what I personally think, because any time Kyle wants to talk to Farah, Farah shuts him down. Overall I really liked this book and I recommend it to others
Jack year 8
14th October 2025 at 12:52 pmSPOILER ALERT!
This book wow! It had me right from the start. What could you possibly want more from a book? the use of description absolutely blew me away. Every single scene I could picture clearly in my head it almost felt like I was in their shoes, traveling and fighting with them every step of the way. I also loved the plot; the way the author would throw a problem in randomly edged me on to read more. The cliffhanger at the end of the book almost made me want him to write another book because I did not get to find out if they got back to the real world from the stillness. My favourite character was Chiu a boy in year 8 who fell off a roof into a shed and woke up in the stillness, camping in the library until he eventually meets Farah and Kyle in the Hospital. My favourite scene was the fighting scene near the end when Kyle and his fiends had to kill each one of of Jonah’s gang one by one to get out of the stillness and return to the real world.
tom
14th October 2025 at 12:50 pmSPOILER ALERT!
This book was incredible to read. It had me hooked on to it from the start of the book, the very first page wanted me to never put the book down. It helped me too understand what having epilepsy feels like, which I did not know a lot about before reading the book. My favourite part of the book was when the murdering action took place and Kyle murdered Tongue as it was a very dramatic part of the book . I felt most empathetic for Farah as she thought that her brain tumor had been cured ages ago, however the cure didn’t work properly. I recommend this book to anyone who is interested in finding more out about epileptic seizures or epilepsy in general. Overall I really enjoyed this book.
Niamh year 8 st pauls
13th October 2025 at 9:10 pmThis is my favourite book so far! It is about a boy who gets trapped in a world for people between life and death. The characters were written brilliantly and the story was so thrilling I struggled to put it down. It was actually quite scary because people don’t know what happens in a state of unconsciousness – the fear of not knowing was the reason why it was so gripping. Honestly, I would’ve liked to find out what happened to the characters at the end though, but it was still really good. Fantasy/dystopia lovers would definitely enjoy this book.
Gabriella Ardingly College Y9
10th October 2025 at 8:59 pmRight from the beginning “Find me after” was thrilling and captivating. The plot was moving; suspense and tension were constantly built. The story line was incredible and made me wonder if there is an afterlife or in between world. Whilst having a thrilling plot, the story is told by the main character, Kyle, who is quite shy in the ‘normal’ world and never really leaves his house. He also has epilepsy. Kyle shares the struggles of it and helps you learn about people who have epilepsy. Overall, I really enjoyed reading “Find me after” as it is well written and has a thrilling plot. I definitely recommend it.
Lara year9 st pauls
10th October 2025 at 5:07 pmI thought this book was really smart and interesting. I never really thought about death and what happens when we aren’t dead but we also aren’t so conscious so when I first read it I was surprised about the world and how much I could visualise the setting the author portrays. Also THAT CLIFFHANGER?!?!! Like I need to know so badly what happens – like will they see each other again or will they just forget everything and it just goes back to normal, I have too many questions. But over all I thought it was really good and would 100% read a 2nd book.
Dalia – year 8
10th October 2025 at 12:46 pmFind Me After was a really touching book. It touches on the idea of an alternate reality and romance. Personally my favourite part was when Kyle meets Farah and the time before they leave the hospital. I like it because I could imagine myself in that situation. I also like it because of the contrast between the beginning and the end. Through out the book the boundaries between them disappear and they become much closer. You can tell that Adam Connors put a lot of effort into the book and that it is really well written. I highly recommend this book because it teaches you about the struggles of epilepsy and teen romance.
Nicole
10th October 2025 at 11:15 amMy thoughts after reading ‘Find Me After’ By Adam Conners. I thoroughly enjoyed this book. I loved the way the book portraited the stillness’s unnerving atmosphere and the constant threat of death kept me right on the edge of my seat. I also enjoyed the philosophical aspect of the book, the characters’ endless questioning of their surroundings kept me completely hooked. I also love how we see Kyle change through out the book, his attitude towards the stillness and life show us resilience in the darkest of times. I highly recommend this book to curious people and philosophical questioners.
Lizzie Year 9
10th October 2025 at 9:52 amI really loved this book. There were so many tiny details that added up in the end, which left your heart racing until you knew it was safe. I thought the setting being in an in-between world was a great idea because it’s unusual and exciting. The fact that the main character had epilepsy made me understand what it’s like to struggle with something like that and it made Kyle much more interesting. I love all the characters because they were all so different and all added to the storyline. There were a lot of unexpected twist at each page. It’s got a thrill to it. I would have liked for it to have a little bit more at the end to see what happened to Farah and Chiu but overall it was a really amazing book.
Vanshika Yr 9
9th October 2025 at 9:04 amFind Me After is one of my favourite books I’ve read so far. I loved the way that the booked moved me and I am not a very emotional person but this book didn’t seem to care about that and left me wanting more. I learnt a lot about how people all over the world live with epilepsy and I am glad that the author got to share that with us. I loved how Kyle grew throughout the book and started to trust himself more and more. I also loved the bit where Ose came to help Kyle because I thought it showed how well people can change. However I didn’t like the ending because I hate cliff-hangers. I really hope there will be a sequel because I can’t wait to find out what happens next!
Quinn – Park Community School
6th October 2025 at 3:36 pmThe book ‘Find Me After’ is one of the most emotional and most exhilarating books I think I have read. It tells an impactful story, while noticing people with certain disabilities. I absolutely loved the close dynamic between the main trio and how they have such a deep admiration for one and another, never giving up on each other. Overall, an amazing book and would recommend this to anyone who loves reading enthralling speculative YA thrillers.
Dasha year 8 St Paul’s
5th October 2025 at 9:50 amThis book was definitely something, I feel like I was a bit terrified myself while reading this but I just couldn’t put it down!
This is a book about a person with epilepsy who got drawn into another universe/idea while his crush from the “real” world was also there . It’s a story of slight romance, death and thrill, I would recommend it to romantasy and thriller fans due to the amazing plot.
One thing I thought was that maybe it wasn’t the monsters we ran away from, maybe it was them.
Ten stars from me!
Louis y9
3rd October 2025 at 7:35 pmI loved this book! It was amazing how gripping it can be; it also has a amazing plot and such good descriptions on each and every character even if they’re there only for a page. It has some sad times and has times that make you laugh, but overall it tells a great story and is one of my favourite books. I would rate it a 8/10.
The book also tells you how epilepsy can be and explainsit in a easy way.
Ella Yr8
2nd October 2025 at 3:08 pmI loved the book Find Me After! It gave me a new understanding of epilepsy and showed me what epilepsy feels like and what the illness can do to you without having a clue about what it was before. This book ran though all the emotions without leaving out any details, showing everything that went through not only Kyle’s mind but every little character as well. I love the way that Adam Connors displayed all the characters and how he has based Kyle on his life. It is a tense, fast paced book as they are running out of time to escape this new dimension of reality. This book shows a new side of escapism and what that can do to your mind! Find Me After was a great book and I would recommend it to anyone that askes me.
Effie Yr8
2nd October 2025 at 2:58 pmFind me after is a powerful story that explores the hidden depths of epilepsy. The way Kyle and Farah are portrayed in the book as their romance blossoms from at first being strong friends to even more than that. This book is a mix of horror, dystopian and romance and fantasy making it a perfect combination. I loved the way that Kyle, Farah and Chiu didn’t quite know if they were ever going to make it out alive. This book has really opened up my mind to epilepsy and the unlimited possibilities that can happen. I think that although it took me a minute to get into the flow of the book it still had me gripped.
Clea Year 8
2nd October 2025 at 2:58 pmFind me after was a great book, I really enjoyed learning about a teenager’s life with epilepsy. I also loved the alternative reality and the fact they were running out of time made it gripping and fast paced. Although it is quite sad my favourite scene was when Farah and Kyle say goodbye because they won’t remember each other. Overall I found this a very powerful book and i would definitely recommend this to others.
Tommy
1st October 2025 at 1:44 pmIn my personal opinion, this was probably the best book I have read this year. ‘Find Me After’ encapsulates some of the some the best factors of tension, fear and pain that I have ever seen in a book. I felt incredibly invested in the characters, and the writing painted a vivid, yet somehow terrifyingly bleak picture in my mind. I couldn’t stop thinking about this book, even after I had finished. The ending in particular was a real masterpiece. The cliff hanger at the very end, combined with the vibrant, harrowing descriptions of the final scene at the hospital, left me on edge. I don’t think I would want a sequel, but only because I feel it would ruin the lyrical artwork that is the ending – truly a masterclass in literature
Tabitha year 9
26th September 2025 at 1:58 pmFind Me After was a book that emotionally broke me. The way that the author makes you feel like you know what epilepsy is and how you can be transported into the world just by reading the first page. Something I love the most about this book is how it’s hooking me in; most books with a first chapter this good slowly start to lose the excitement but A. Connors didn’t have this issue. Every time I pick up the book I always feel like I never put it down. I love it when books use the same start of a chapter that they did in the beginning as at the end and unlike most other attempts didn’t make it feel cheesy or repetitive. Kyle as a main character was so well written, you immediately like him but not in that forced way. He’s funny, relatable and everything in between. I know this is controversial but Farah I didn’t particularly like until toward the end, she just gave me bad vibes, unlike Chiu who the first chapter I met him in, I knew he was going to be my favourite. And he was, bar Jonah who really moves the book along.
Norah Yr8
25th September 2025 at 3:04 pmThis book surprised me. The plot was like no other I had ever read, the mix of action, dystopia and romance was exhilarating. I also loved Chiu, I loved how he was some sort of child genius that could think up some wild ideas and plans! Not only was it an adventure, it also had dark hints of horror that left a shiver on my spine. If you like eerie adventures, then this is your book.
Marianne Year 8
25th September 2025 at 3:02 pmThis is now my new favourite book. All the genres really stick the book together, making the image of a world that was truly falling apart. The description of Kyle’s epilepsy was very powerful and touching as it gave me a different perspective of how he struggles. I feel that the detail in the relationship between Farah and Kyle, is a tender and slow burn romance, which brings a sparkling tension between them. I recommend this book 100%.
Phoebe YEAR 8
24th September 2025 at 11:04 amFind me after was an unputdownable adventure that taught me an important lesson about epilepsy. The character of Kyle was very vivid for me and the plot was gripping because of how the writing was fast paced and very descriptive. I really enjoyed the idea of the stillness and how they were running out of time. I found the ending tense and quite sad so I’m hoping there will be a sequel because I have never read a book with so many themes and genres going on at once! I have already recommended this book to a friend (who also loves fantasy and romance) and she read it in only 4 sittings!
William Y8
23rd September 2025 at 1:03 pmFind me after was a great book, it had great descriptions of how the characters really felt deep down mainly in the perspective of Kyle. Kyle was slightly wimpy at the start of the book but his confidence grew through the book because of Farah and the world he was in. The world, from the description from the book, was a scary place where the days were short and you shouldn’t go out at night because terrible things would happen to you and change you. This world was brutal where people that were in between life and death lived and when they were dying they would have strange things happening to them – for example they had eyeballs grow on their body and they would have extra fingers grow on their hands and the only way to survive was to cut them off. However I thought that the ending was a bit abrupt and rushed because it seemed to me that it all happened very quickly and was less detailed than the rest the book, however the story was a great one and it felt like it meant something to the author and was described well.
Lily Year 8
23rd September 2025 at 1:02 pmI really enjoyed this book. The personal touches from the author about his own experiences with epilepsy made the book feel so much more real and really put epilepsy in perspective for me. I wouldn’t have been able to put it down if I wanted to. The book took me through so many different emotions with the characters as they went through the story overcoming their problems and facing them. I loved watching Kyle and Farah’s romance grow as they put aside social statuses from the real world and learned about each other. My favourite part was definitely the end, the cliff-hanger was perfect, I would die to know what happened when they got back to the real world. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who likes fantasy, horror or romance.
Theodore Year 8
18th September 2025 at 2:53 pmI really liked this book. It showed a good perspective from a person with epilepsy, showing that people with epilepsy can live in their own world. I also liked that the adventure and thrill in the book was able to overlap with romance. I would recommend this book for young teenagers, truly a pleasure to read.
Aya Year 9
18th September 2025 at 9:18 amI really liked this book because it had lots of action but at the same time it had lots of interesting philosophical foundations and let me explore the world of epilepsy and how it feels after waking up from a seizure. This book kept me hooked and I couldn’t put it down. I loved the plot and the twists and while the ending was very punchy and gripping, I still really want to know if they made it, so if a second book does come out, I’ll be very excited to read it. Additionally, I think it really benefited the book that there were more characters than just Kyle and Farah, deepening the plot and making the book even harder to put down. I would recommend this to anyone ages 12 and above as I feel like everyone has a lot to learn from this novel.
Herbert
17th September 2025 at 11:02 amThis book is truly amazing, because it really gets your mind ticking about what happens if you are having a epileptic seizure or are even just knocked out, this is a question I ask myself all the time so this really hit home with what I want in a book. I really liked the part when they met the little boy Chui who had read a whole library worth of books! The only thing that bugged me was the ending, it was left on a cliff hanger which could be quite irritating if you want to see what happens especially if there is not a second book but I have to admit it did spark your curiosity. For me this book would be perfect for 12 to 15 year olds because it has action and even romance. This book is definitely up there with some of my favourites and I would definitely recommend it.
Charlotte Year 8
17th September 2025 at 10:55 amI liked this book thoroughly as I liked the themes it explores and how the book is written. The details kept me eager to see what will happen next each time I put it down. The selection of genres: Fantasy, romance and horror are something I look for in a book separately and I found it all in one book! I love the character of Farah as she is caring and always on the look out for danger which I think I would be like in this scenario. I am looking forward to seeing what the author writes next.
Leo
17th September 2025 at 10:55 amGripping to put it frankly, Find me after had me from the start. I loved the fact the author used epilepsy to push the “alternate world” into the story; it did take me some time to get into it but once I was in, there was no going back. I found it was great how the characters were portrayed and I believe that the storyline was executed to perfection. My favourite part was the ending, the cliff-hanger had me on edge wanting to know what happened next. I would definitely recommend this book and even read it again myself.
Adrian YR8
17th September 2025 at 10:49 amI thought that this book would be seizures and hospital visits, but I now understand that this is a rough fictional experience of a Epileptic child. This helped me understand more about people with epilepsy and how society is just starting to understand them and there is still more to explore. The main character Kyle meets his friend in the unknown land, and they journey together, which shows us that anything is possible, even if you’re with “an atheist, a Muslim and an Asian” in an unknown world with someone after you.
Thank you.
Olly Year 8
16th September 2025 at 1:00 pmFind Me After is well written, and I like how the writer uses his own experience to really immerse the reader in the details. I also think that the ending was a bit abrupt, and there were gaps in a few places, but not enough for another book, so it does keep the reader thinking, even after it was finished. It describes feelings and emotions well, and poses questions like ‘If this world did exist, what is It?’. The book is describes the bleakness of the Stillness in a spine-chilling way, and also is very well imagined, with a world which only works with things people have ideas of. All in all it is a good book and I would recommend it.
Rosie Year 8
10th September 2025 at 7:18 pmI thoroughly enjoyed this book. The mix of horror, romance and fantasy makes it impossible to put down. The book took me through a rollercoaster of emotions, with some hair – raising moments, as well as sad moments. I would definitely recommend this book to a friend, who enjoys reading similar genres to me.
Felix Year 8
10th September 2025 at 9:10 amThis book was really engaging because it goes into detail about how Kyle feels and how he is struggling in the real world. My favourite part is when they are about to go into the machine and they do not know what is going to happen next. It is very immersive and make you feel like you are one of the characters going through the process that they are going through in the story. It got me reading it every day and I can’t wait to see what happens next in the book. This is probably ages for 12-13 years old and covers a variety of genres. I would like to what his next books are going to be and read them!
Theo
3rd September 2025 at 10:49 amWow. This book was everything I had wanted in a book, combined with everything I didn’t even know I wanted. Furthermore it really helped me to understand what it’s like to have epilepsy (while maybe without the Stillness,) which was something I didn’t know much about. The plot is also amazing, and the twists and turns were some of the most unexpected I’ve ever read.